Writing is a Developmental Process
It can be useful to consider the growing of your writing a developmental process. Your writing could suddenly get better, or even great, but neither is a good bet. However, when you keep writing and pay attention to the quality of that writing, you will begin to note changes occurring, some for the better. You can congratulate yourself. Consider the nature of the changes for the better and aim to accentuate the positive.
Kicked Back Writer
You can be relaxed enough. You can be abundantly relaxed. If you are not procrastinating, you may be relaxing just enough. If you are also writing, you are doing relaxed writing. There is no law against being a kicked back writer. Relaxed writing is often very good writing, and it is relaxing!
Changes
Your writing can change others and it does change you. Its a natural process. Your writing does not change alone, it also changes you, mostly for the better. As you practice your writing , as you write, your thinking changes, you come to behave differently, and to see happenings and life differently! To ripen and mature your writing, you cultivate it. This cultivating is les like high culture and more like caring for one's garden. Relaxed persistence and attention does the trick.
Do
Do avoid wasting time. You can sketch in a draft roughly; you can move fast when doing so feels OK. You can let your commitment and investment feel light. doing so does take some commitment. It pays to spend enough time and effort to make this draft a kind of complete version of that which you want to express. It can turn out to seem a mess, but it is your mess and there is almost certainly some good stuff in it. don't throw it a way yet.
Try thinking of your words as though they are able to grow. Let them grow, allow them the energy they need to grow. Send energy through through your words. Relaxed is good, but you want to do too. Give your words life energy to continue. You are cooking. You may already know that with attention you come to to the cooking, growth, and development.
Organizing Words
If you see your words coming into small piles and interacting you are most likely not crazy. Bundling is happening. It is a natural doing among us humans and an efficient doing. It is very likely that you are becoming more conscious of the process of writing. Attend and you may see those words separate and form new little piles according to some organizing pattern. The small piles consolidate and shake down into their best organization. They move together again into a big pile and work until a different pattern pattern emerges. This may repeat 4 or 5 times until you are satisfied or until it feels right.
As You Grow
Your writing has undergone changes, so have you. Some of those changes will help your future writing be better.
Onwards.
Let the new idea or perception finally take shape. Let go of the old perception and your writing grow. Some of your writing will seem bad this month and this year; accept that and see also that much of your writing shows improvement. As you grow your writing grows and as your writing grows, so do you.
Keep Writing
Start writing and keep writing through great or little disorientation and chaos on to an organizing center of gravity; then go on to wrapping up and editing. Remember that is often best to complete a paragraph or more be foe considering the major rewriting of anything. Take time to reread your writing when you are rested, calm, and relaxed. You will find stinking poop from time to time. You will also find some truly fine writing. Pay attention to it. Then I try to destroy the stinking part before anyone else can see it. It is better to use it to point you you to the best of that which you were trying to say, Doing so might lead you to some of your best writing.
We could be beginning a process of satisfying life-long learning, cooking, and and maturing one draft at a time. We might call it a process of development.
Thank you for reading.
RCS